What do you do...?

What do you do when people you care about don't ever talk to you?

I know people get busy and have lives (which, aside from my job and school, I don't), but I have people I haven't heard from in weeks. Or worse.

So what do you do?

I don't know.

Out Into the Void...again

Well, here I am, and it's pretty much the same. There are a few of you who read here, and I appreciate that alot. But aside from the ones I know read, there is little else. If I didn't have a highly fulfilling job I wouldn't have anything else to be around for.

Few read this blog much. Few seek me out to talk to me or to tell me that they hurt or ask me how I am. I'm just here...always trying to talk to someone when I'm around, never really getting much.

I'm sorry if I'm making those of you who do read feel bad, that is not my intent. I guess I'm hoping that someone stumbles upon this who usually doesn't read. I'm hoping they think about those out there who are reaching out and are really lonely...

...and can't quite bring themselves to give up just yet because for some reason they still have hope.

That's about where I find myself.

Out into the Void

It's amazing how easily forgotten I feel right now. I haven't heard from hardly anyone lately. Granted, I've had alot of school work (both college and for work), but my instant messsenger is usually up and running. My phone is always on. Nobody IMs. Nobody calls. This does little for my self esteem, and quite frankly it just causes me to worry about all those people who aren't staying in contact.

Alot of times it makes me wonder if perhaps I'm just annoying everyone too.

I came very close to loosing my current job position to a teacher whose class was being closed permanantly. I barely got off with "more qualifications." That was scary. I've come too far and love these kids too much.

And at the moment, my job is about all I've got.