When I heard this song playing from my IPod today during planning, I knew it was going to end up on the playlist tonight. Now, any of you who know me fairly well know I’m a sucker for artists who actually play instruments. I also love accoustic guitar music. On top of that, I like musicians who write their own music. Dave Matthews meets all of these.
And the lyrics of this song are…wow. At least, to me they are. I can’t say I’ve been this far down in terms of where I am in life, but there are times life has seemed pretty “grey.” I’ve definitely felt stuck in a rut before; while job searching, while changing schools, whie looking for my house. Sometimes being here in Jacksonville is enough to induce the “stuck” feeling. Things are getting better in this regard; since I moved to the new school I am going out with coworkers to do stuff and feel more connected with people my age since it’s a younger crowd. But sometimes weekends are still lonely and I still struggle with the idea of going out somewhere new and meeting new people. I’m still so very convinced I’m too weird or that I might disappoint.
But having said all that, I think my life, while it has its ruts and “grey streets,” still isn’t all that bad. I keep reminding myself that there are people out there struggling much more than I am. And this song reminds me of that as well. From “Grey Street” by the Dave Matthews Band:
Oh look at how she listens
She says nothing of what she thinks
She just goes stumbling through her memories
Staring out on to Grey Street.
She thinks, “Hey, how did I come to this?”
I dream myself a thousand times around the world
But I can’t get out of this place.
There’s an emptiness inside her
And she’ll do anything to fill it in
But all the colors mix together – to grey
And it breaks her heart