Out into the Void
It's amazing how easily forgotten I feel right now. I haven't heard from hardly anyone lately. Granted, I've had alot of school work (both college and for work), but my instant messsenger is usually up and running. My phone is always on. Nobody IMs. Nobody calls. This does little for my self esteem, and quite frankly it just causes me to worry about all those people who aren't staying in contact.
Alot of times it makes me wonder if perhaps I'm just annoying everyone too.
I came very close to loosing my current job position to a teacher whose class was being closed permanantly. I barely got off with "more qualifications." That was scary. I've come too far and love these kids too much.
And at the moment, my job is about all I've got.
Alot of times it makes me wonder if perhaps I'm just annoying everyone too.
I came very close to loosing my current job position to a teacher whose class was being closed permanantly. I barely got off with "more qualifications." That was scary. I've come too far and love these kids too much.
And at the moment, my job is about all I've got.
posted by StargazerGirl at 2:30 AM
4 Comments:
[[makes a face]]
course we care now, silli!!!!!!
dont bank e'erything on ur job, no matter how thrilling or fulfilling. trust me on this one.
in fact, ur a second-decan gemini liek me. and, we tend to get obsessive o'er certain things to mebbe tis time to find *more than one thing* to obsess bout, if u get my drift.
u still consumin Dr. Pepper by da litre?? btw, ur email address bounced back 2 mails to me..back from months ago(!?)
hows that new club of urs? TELL ME
and, t'would help if u yelled in mine ear from time 2 time. figuratively speaking, of course ;)
Hey, here's a long-distance hug for you. Hope things are getting better.
I understand this. I had a sub-teaching job at a local county school{special education aid}, and let me tell you...It was near and dear my heart to be excepted into the posistion, it tore me apart when I did NOT go back after day one, but I did learn something...These were under privaledged kids, who seemd more than anything, to simply want a hug. This made my Christmas, that they were so attached to me so fast...It also is the reason I never went back...I could NOT look them in the face another day and tell them that 'I am not allowed to hug as per the school board rules'. We could've given EXACTLY what the kids needed and wanted most, but we were denied the chance to help. It was a life lesson, and I still wonder how lil'Michael Ramie turned out or if Stevie ever learned to tie his shoe. See, it's NOT the job, it's the passion you put in and the lessons you come away with!You are fabu!!! I understand :)
I'm not annonymous LOL WHOOPS...Cass again :)
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